BYE-BYE Drama February 03 2020, 0 Comments
I'm going to start with the positive first. I had come back home from the East Coast two days early (see below). It was a quiet three days as Neil and I were doing our own thing.
On Thursday, we decided to take another field trip. We headed to Saguache to visit Jeep Enthusiast Terry Gillette and his collection of military Jeeps at the Jeep Rescue League. Video coming Soon!
Then Friday, we headed back to Delta, Colorado to pick up Neil's new toy, a 1942 CJ2A with a military body. Neil was so excited.
He has been wanting one forever. However, he decided the military part of the Jeep deserves to be preserved so we are dropping it off to Terry to preserve this one of a kind piece of history for all to share in. In exchange we will get a body to match the CJ2A frame.
I ended the week putting together my latest YouTube video.
I had flown back to the East Coast at the end of Week 5 to see my kids. I was so excited to see my boys. I had found a $100 round trip ticket on Spirit Airlines. For a hundred dollars I will skip the free peanuts and soda.
It was great seeing my kids. We enjoyed our limited time together. All in all the trip was very eye opening. I actually went back too soon to visit. Being a guest in my own home was very difficult. Seeing friends was so hard emotionally, because it will never be the same. Trying to pick up where I left was not going to work.
Then all the drama re-entered my brain. I was emotionally falling apart dealing with the separation and lawyers, repeated questions from friends of why I had to leave, being back in that environment was all to consuming. I was letting it affect me. It became very unhealthy for me. I was blowing every thing out of proportion. I crashed, so I left 2 days early. My time with the boys was basically done as I couldn't stay at my house anyways. I couldn't bear staying there and not seeing my kids. The moment I began driving back to the San Luis Valley I felt relief and the pressure leave.
You know, everyone has their issues they are dealing with and I am not unlike everyone else. We all are going through something that can be very emotionally hard. I decided I need to be drama free and work on my future. I can't change the past, but learn from it. I have decided to stop focusing on the drama, as I'm sure you are tired of hearing it, just as Neil is too. He is a patient man, and I'm thankful he was here to support me even though I drove him bonkers.
SO BYE BYE Drama. Time to heal and work on ME! It's a hard thing for me to do since I have pretty much spent the past twenty or so years neglecting me and my needs.